Christina Ann Joanna

Nah I wasn't upset for any good reason..

TV

The show was good today, I just kept thinking and pop felt like I was upset @ Ellen. I try not to.

So.. nice people on today I think.

Heritage

I was thinking of their daughter in New Orleans. Maybe, me living in Florida made me more susceptible to it. I wonder if Ellen is even more. You know, I held onto my modern Floridian heritage..

Ellen DeGeneres or fans you might be interested..

http://cmfa.loyno.edu/loyola-university-mourns-loss-longtime-faculty-member-philip-frohnmeyer

The music director @ my college from 2004-5 passed away. I liked him a lot, not sure what happened. I know I wasn't accepted and kicked out for shyness, though he was not my teacher, someone unrelated who left, who'd lived in the panhandle or Pensacola? An older lady. Theresa MacRee (McRee.) I had to audition a 2nd time just on piano. I got the 2nd highest scholarship, so that was good.

That freaks me out. He looks old, guessing he is 70. Singers must die. Let's see how Ellen does. Johnny Depp quit. Hm.. I was gonna retire @ 40.

I know we all thought his wife was ***y, but some people must have helped it with some extreme, not sure what that does, played a big part of my college interest. I mean, even when I wasn't there, I thought I was in some experiment.

This guy also went to Harvard, for music! Their singing is very serious and I suppose they are teachers not singers. They are such good teachers.. He had a cool nasal voice.

Well, the wife was very big, tall, too, with dark hair and light skin, from Minnesota I found from my teacher. Their daughter was thin and a bit supple, did her Masters there. Guess she is from New Orleans. I remember I could see through the whites of her nails from sitting in the audience during an open master class. I coulda been a great singer, too bad. Her singing is good and intelligent. There was another big girl, a senior that year, smaller girl though but plump. She made it all worth it. I'd see her around.

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Problems

So, no matter how good I was my mom didn't think I was cool and cute and good.

Something in my diet? Why pose me as tacky? Why should I be with you guys! :0 (I still want to be with them sometimes..)

Funny

I don't mean to be rude, but it seems if Chloe Moretz wants something as a Southerner she gets it. Who else? (I just heard a pop..) Nell Burton. It's like they have to have it. I don't think Tim Burton has ancient Southern heritage. Like, she poses herself in the position with subtle hints to me or others. Most people would scoff at that. Don't think they wouldn't care. It's cute, but I just wanted to point that out. It makes me jealous cuz I believe rich people from the South are the best, but my relatives up north don't all come in dark hair, which seems more attractive up there.

Edit

I changed the Texas picture to just a hotel cuz my hair was shorter.

Nite

I am a bit awake.. slinks off

Parents! What's'a'matta with parents!

I mean, like my mom is jealous I'm not just a plain Asian person. My dad thinks life is a contest and doesn't act normally. I don't mean anything bad, just my mom seems to think that, and my dad is always testing me I feel.

What It Is

Obviously, it's just jealousy and inability to function.

Problem

What if I went through the day without saying, oh I'm sorry the people who told me they wanted to hurt someone was hurt by me when they weren't even .. and to always be checking and humbling myself. Er, no. I don't meditate in the dust.

Icy Elsa

Sorry

for the sorta nasty comment on something including what's precious.

Mostly

I see each episode of Ellen DeGeneres twice.

New Photos of Me From the Past on Facebook

link

Loss of Friend

Well, not really Ellen's fault? Sad, though.

Chris mas Chris mas Time is Here

Ellen, do you know what Christmas is? Look at a shiny object, think of the religion, and wish that object were someday a part of you. Look at the little displays of people ice skating in the bitter cold along with loved 1s. It's @ the prickly green pines, Charlie Brown getting his tree out in the snow and coming home to Snoopy. Think of the Christmas songs people could sing on TV. Think of.. the 1 time it gets cold and you have a good time where you are, maybe go home and watch cartoons.. Dress up warmly and help with the shoveling, I guess.. Warm and cozy in your room maybe with a window to look out of.

Food-

Well

I am a respectable, tortured person. Everyone is mean to me and then gets mad if I feel upset.

Maybe, I'll have more spaghetti and meatballs and another hot fudge sundae. Watch Ellen again. :)

I already said, the 1st semester at Loyola failed was the construction work and I had to walk for health, didn't know what to do, shoulda withdrawn by the end at least. 2nd, I heard suicidal clicks in my room and ears.. 3rd I did leave and get the refund. Also, I know at least 1 thought both other semesters were free from the hurricane. You chose to plane me down for a holiday. Go back to Washington D.C. and I didn't have the energy to walk for my lunch because of the experiment. So, I couldn't fathom the simple yet backed up assignment. What else? Store cards, just got outta hand, figured "we'd" pay it off someday, I should.. BW, I couldn't do the history! I can never do the history! We never did it! Now, I don't have hope in college but real life! If anything!

It's even my money, too. You didn't tell me to withdraw! They said I could go on break, so we shouldn't even have to pay until I make lots of money then will pay back. May use it for other things if possible, maybe not the best way.

Ugh!

Why did I get upset this time? Wasn't too big of a thing. No one treats me like a human, and I need people. I'm gonna be busy soon. Not much word on voice over.